I do not know how to say this IF there is a day that I decided to say it...
But I am sure this secret might just die with me…
It cannot be said, it will be a sin, well almost if you are not Hedonistic…
I will just keep mum and cross my heart, never ever to tell anyone about this…
I hope I can contain my heart, my emotions, my being, my everything and fight the urge to pursue what my heart yearns with all my being…because the very act of making it know will crash my world immediately…
May it die with me…
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
May it die with me...
I do not know how to say this IF there is a day that I decided to say it...
But I am sure this secret might just die with me…
It cannot be said, it will be a sin, well almost if you are not Hedonistic…
I will just keep mum and cross my heart, never ever to tell anyone about this…
I hope I can contain my heart, my emotions, my being, my everything and fight the urge to pursue what my heart yearns with all my being…because the very act of making it know will crash my world immediately…
May it die with me…
But I am sure this secret might just die with me…
It cannot be said, it will be a sin, well almost if you are not Hedonistic…
I will just keep mum and cross my heart, never ever to tell anyone about this…
I hope I can contain my heart, my emotions, my being, my everything and fight the urge to pursue what my heart yearns with all my being…because the very act of making it know will crash my world immediately…
May it die with me…
She went out cold...
7.15am – Her alarm went off…she reached for her clock and hit the snooze button…
7.25am – Alarm went off again, she sighed and turned over...ignoring the warning of her clock…
7.45am – She gasped and bolted out off her room and tried to get her make-up, hair and attire pull together in under 15mins
8.20am – She gulped down her coffee and cereal and rushed to catch her morning train, walking speedily on her 3-inch heels, trying to steady herself over the uneven ground while avoiding the traffic.
9.01am – She made it in time, wiping off her perspiration and the Make-up as she sat down on at her desk, waiting for her emails to be downloaded
10.15 am – Emails cleared for the morning and she suppressed her growling stomach, calling out for lunch...
12noon – Heels clucked down the stairs, making their way to another day of gossips and lamenting…
2pm – type, type, and type….went her fingers…
6.20pm – Realization that her day has went back in the midst of emails & phone calls and she stared blankly at the choice of “Restart, Log off & Shut Down”…..
She went out cold….
7.25am – Alarm went off again, she sighed and turned over...ignoring the warning of her clock…
7.45am – She gasped and bolted out off her room and tried to get her make-up, hair and attire pull together in under 15mins
8.20am – She gulped down her coffee and cereal and rushed to catch her morning train, walking speedily on her 3-inch heels, trying to steady herself over the uneven ground while avoiding the traffic.
9.01am – She made it in time, wiping off her perspiration and the Make-up as she sat down on at her desk, waiting for her emails to be downloaded
10.15 am – Emails cleared for the morning and she suppressed her growling stomach, calling out for lunch...
12noon – Heels clucked down the stairs, making their way to another day of gossips and lamenting…
2pm – type, type, and type….went her fingers…
6.20pm – Realization that her day has went back in the midst of emails & phone calls and she stared blankly at the choice of “Restart, Log off & Shut Down”…..
She went out cold….
Thursday, August 13, 2009
A New Chapter starts when the previous Chapter completes
" A new Chapter" as quoted by Mr Chia...I am officially Mrs Chia effective 1st August 2009......and 4 years of bickering, hugging, loving & non-stop tormenting of each other has passed quickly without us realising it...
We are now MR & MRS Chia...=D...
Frankly, there is no earth-shattering changes or overwhelming emotions turmoils...
the only thing that we will need some time to get accustomed, is to check the "MARRIED" box instead of "Single" box when we filled up forms...=D...
Well, looking at my previous post...i am undergoing some emotions roller coaster rides...no biggie, it is just part & parcel of life..=)
Growing up, people around you grow old, they passed on...
you start a new life with a total stranger of no blood relations,
have kids, you grow old when your kids grow up...
it is a cycle...a giant wheel that will never stop turning just because of your non-stop tears & grief...
Life goes on but the heart grows heavier & more complex...
Surprisingly, you will be able to feel more for certain things and learn how to ignore the pain of some other things which might kill you in your youth....we move on...we let go of things...
Well, at least I know that is what ah Mah would want to see... our smiles...our happiness which we treasure even more after her departure...
A new Chapter Begins when the old chapter completes...
She has gone for a walk...
Quoting my friend, she is off to a better place.
A place with no medication & needles...
no pain...no suffering...
We were lucky...we were there to send her off...
we were lucky to whisper comforting words to her before she leaves so that she can take a break finally without worrying what to cook for the family during CNY or whether her grandchild will ever be married and settled down...
We cried....quite abit...still crying now...but we are glad...coz she has no pain now...
My maid dreamt of her....in her dreams, my maid saw her in the living room on her favorite chair.
She wanted to help her up but she smiled and shook her hands...
She stood up & walked out of the house...the way that she did every morning for her walk when she had no pain & her head of hair was full & black...
I am glad...she is good now.
She has gone for a walk...
We love you...ah mah...
A place with no medication & needles...
no pain...no suffering...
We were lucky...we were there to send her off...
we were lucky to whisper comforting words to her before she leaves so that she can take a break finally without worrying what to cook for the family during CNY or whether her grandchild will ever be married and settled down...
We cried....quite abit...still crying now...but we are glad...coz she has no pain now...
My maid dreamt of her....in her dreams, my maid saw her in the living room on her favorite chair.
She wanted to help her up but she smiled and shook her hands...
She stood up & walked out of the house...the way that she did every morning for her walk when she had no pain & her head of hair was full & black...
I am glad...she is good now.
She has gone for a walk...
We love you...ah mah...
Monday, October 13, 2008
A Dream Getaway...
a dream getaway...
it does not matter where...
destination is just a canvas as it is only you that matters...
a dream getaway...
it does not need a million dollars to create a perfect sunset...
it is perfect if i can see the sunset in your eyes...
a dream getaway...
it does not need lavish dinners nor many many exotic dreams weaving...
it will be dreamy as long as we are intoxicated by the magic of feeling in love...
a dream getaway....
it is just a little illusion of me trying to be intoxicated in love...
it does not matter where...
destination is just a canvas as it is only you that matters...
a dream getaway...
it does not need a million dollars to create a perfect sunset...
it is perfect if i can see the sunset in your eyes...
a dream getaway...
it does not need lavish dinners nor many many exotic dreams weaving...
it will be dreamy as long as we are intoxicated by the magic of feeling in love...
a dream getaway....
it is just a little illusion of me trying to be intoxicated in love...
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